My Destination

An inside story of me as an Actress, Singer, Writer, Producer, Friend, Sister & Daughter . And to share with you the journey of my life.

Monday, June 28, 2010

I will never say goodbye to you my Papa
cause I know this is not the end for us to see each other.
You will only be going to a place where there’s no pain nor suffering.
I am happy for you, for you will be with God.
For now we need to go in separate ways.
I remember how your arms hold me and give me strength.
You were always there to listen, love, and defend me in everything.
You were my very best friend.
In my triumphs you were always proud.
I’m very grateful and proud to call you my dad.
Here deep inside my heart you’ll always be.
I would give up everything I have just to hug you one more time.
I remember the last time I hold you’re hand and how you looked at me in the eyes.
If only I could turn back the time I would have never let you go.
I felt the world stops and my heart stop beating when they told me you’re gone…….
How I wish I was only dreaming.
Just like the rain; tears fell down from my eyes, I couldn’t speak for a while.
Thank you Papa….
For always understanding, listening , caring, and loving me for the rest of your life.
The greatest gift God gave me was YOU…….. my Dad…
It’s difficult to let you go but I must…
I must return the gift God gave me…
Till then;
See you in Heaven………

Sunday, January 03, 2010

Dear Mom,

I would be so lost without you with me...

Mom, you are my strength and purpose for me to keep on going in life, no matter how hard i fall ...
You would be the reason that i get back on my 2 feet again!
What would i do witjout you?

I can't imagine ...

How can i repay you mom? Your love is unconditional, I'm so afraid to let you go ...
You're an amazing woman, I adore you ...

How can i ever give you the love that you have given to me? Have i given you enough? How else can i make you happy mom?

I would want to give you the world ...
Just tell me ...

You love unconditionally, with no expectations ...
Can i ever give like you do?

And i Thank You, for teaching me how to love like you do ...

Mom, adik sayang mama sepenuh hati adik! Dunia & Akhirat ...

Shivers ... Nice
Imagine...
Warmth, comfort, touch, smell,
breath, feel, brushes onto mine...

Im content ...
Let me hear deeper
Deeper into your soul
Without having to say a word
I could hear you ...

Let me hear deeper ...
Di sini

Ku rasai perbedaan
Ku suka kamu, ku inginkan kamu
tapi meangapa ia sukar untukku
menagtakan yang benar kepada mu

Ku suka kamu!
Ku duduk berfikir
Terfikir apa yang akan terjadi akan
diriku ini
Ku duduk dan berfikir
Mungkin kah ini permulaan atau yang
terakhir
Ku duduk berfikir
Berfikir dan terfikir
Mengapa ini semua terjadi
Funny,

When you're hurt, it's funny
When you're down, It's funny
When you're happy. it's funny
When you're up and down, it's funny
When you go through all this shit,
and look back at it,
You would think that it's very funny!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Life is such ...
Pretty much filled with Happiness, Sadness, Love and Hatred. What's more to it, is that, it's got extensions of Happiness cause of your Sadness, Sadness cause of your Happiness, Love it cause you Hate it, Hate it cause you Love it and it just gets complicated! Well to me, it's all bullshit!! It just boils down to one thing , Choices .... It's either you LOVE It or you Don't!!! Take It or Leave It!!!
Complications happens when there's to much of emotional interference. It's okay to have some, but not to be dominated by it.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Confusion,
That would only happen to me when i loose my focus. Or when there is circumstances that just arise. Pretty much im going through that right now.
This very moment, am just unsure to persue something that i have put all my heart and soul into or to experience a different venture in life which i have never experience before.
An adventure to me, having said that, i know all the risk that i would be taking, if i were to take this path, yet I'll be leaving the art that i have created from a blank paper.
Now, I would have to make a choice!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

I Wish ...
There's to many thing to wishing ... I would prefer to be more exact " My goal is to pursue my animation job into a success and to be known as the "Queen Of Animation", now, that sounds more promising and encouraging doesn't it?
I Wish ...
It just sounds to magical and unbelievable at times. It also makes a person wonder themselves into fantasy land, and not realising that they are really missing out in the real world!
I Wish ...
Just by saying that, makes you go into the la la land and gets you high on .... an imagination that keeps showing up in Ur Mind! Wait! I can't even see it from here! Wake Up! This is the real world, everybody gets to see what we do! Results shows! From wishing and dreaming, the only thing i could see is just "You sitting at the corner with your eyes shut and mouth open halfway drooling, almost similar to a person hitting climax! Then later, eyes wide open ... Not In Fairy Land No More!
Wake Up People ! Have A Vision! Go And Get It!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

It's kind of hard to get to know a person well enough when your not with them. But if you allow yourself to let the other person into your space, probably there shall be opportunity to create great relation with that person. Before i move on, i would love to have all of you into my space and share with you all of my stories, as for that i would want all of you to give me your permission to allow myself and thoughts into your space ... Then, you'll Get To Know Me ... as "I am a giving, caring and loving woman"
I know it has taken a long time for me to get into this again. Always have thought that i was bad in writing. Everything just feels pretty much jamned up everytime i try to fill it in. Was never good at minute's as well. But sometime we just got to just nudge ourselves into doing things. Pretty obvious that i am doing it to myself right now. Got to start somewhere right?
Anyway, i've always been fascinated in the entire world of writing! Someday, if i keep this up, i know i will make a good Novelist or a Script Writer ...
Speaking of which i have been putting my hands into script writing, and working on it fulltime!It's also easy for me to make things up and go wild with my story telling, but never easy for me to tell stories about me. There's alot of thing's that i would love to share with all you, just not sure where to start. Let me see ... I know ... "Hello"

Monday, October 16, 2006

This is the beginning of an incredible journey of mine. A journey that i once fear, a journey that i thought that i could never go on, but with determination and confidence i shall go through it. I shall not hold myself back anymore, i shall show the people i know, the people i love and the world what, i am capable of . A women full of talent and passionate in the world of entertainment and also art.
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